sooooo i really suck at keeping up with stuff. but hey, if you know me, you know that's just how i am.
anyway. the summer is almost over. i'm on my last week of work for the summer, which i am super psyched about!
this summer made me feel like a housewife, haha. i've been a counselor, a cook, and the "dishwasher/cleaner"
i started off the summer as a counselor and i loved it as always. i have a gift for working with kids. i guess because i am a kid at heart still. i mean don't get me wrong, i can totally associate with adults, but there's a different sort of energy that comes from kids. that wide eyed excitement, and fascination with everything new. that constantly changing emotion, where one second they can be sobbing from sadness, fear, or exhaustion, and the next running and laughing and playing like nothing ever happened. i admire that. often i wish it was that easy for me to be happy again. but being around that kind of energy that comes from kids, makes me happy again.
cooking was something new this summer, and i was pretty surprised at how much i liked it. there's something kind of soothing about chopping things. and even though i say i was cooking, in all honesty i do mostly prep, so yes, i chop a lot. i can't even count the number of tomatoes i've cut up this week alone... and there was one day i mixed 18 boxes of pancake mix. EIGHTEEN BOXES. that's a lot of pancakes you guys.
then i went back to my usual ( and dreaded) kitchen job. cleaning, and doing dishes. guys, i HATE that job. like it's the kind of job that makes me want to run away and never come back. it's the kind of job that makes me lock myself in the refrigerator three times a day (at least) and scream. it's dirty, sweaty, and hard. but that's not why i don't like it. no. it's the fact that there is absolutely no appreciation or respect. i am just the girl in the kitchen. the girl who cleans up after them.
i don't mind doing the dirty work. in fact i kind of pride myself on the fact that i can do it. but if there's one thing that's important to me it's respect. and yeah i've had moments of disrespect towards other people, and i am ashamed of those moments.
it just really grinds my gears that when i do so much for people, they still just walk all over me. even my boss. she doesn't fully understand what she's asking from me, and only points out what i've not done yet. yet, when i step down from that job for a week or two, the people who take over from me get a lot of help, smiles, and appreciation from her. why is it that i am not given that same attitude?
i don't mean to bitch. it's just something that has really been grinding my gears lately.
anyway. with all the work i haven't exactly had time for a summer vacation ya know? which honestly isn't that bad either, considering that i have no one to spend time with anyway.
i'm officially a loner. which yeah, isn't always fun. but.... c'est la vie.
